Thoughts on Love

So I am watching Love Actually, one of the most amazing films ever created and I'm having some thoughts about this whole "love" subject.

I have been on my own for the past two months...as in alone and on my own in this crazy country. I have been single for the past few months and it has been an interesting ride. I have not only learned a lot about myself through being single, but I have learned a lot about what I want out of life. Being here in NZ, I have developed a whole new perspective on the subject of love and marriage and all that 'til death do us part' stuff.

First off, the divorce rate here in NZ is higher than it is in the states...something like 60 or 65 percent. I think this is because so many people marry very young here...and by the time they reach 30, they are restless again and have changed and no longer want to be tied down with someone who has either not changed with them or has changed in a different direction. It is very sad to see single parent after single parent come in to pick up their kids...the mother or father is either nowhere to be found, or doesn't care, or is around but just not as much as they should be.

Second thing is that I have been able to spend time with a few married couples who have been able to capture exactly what I hope to find someday. They are still ambitious, they are not materialistic, they want to travel and see things and do things and take risks. They want to explore and soak up every bit that life has to offer...they want to roll with the punches, laugh at their mistakes, enjoy their successes, and always be there to take care of eachother. I really feel that experiences people share together is what helps to strenghthen a bond. To create memories with someone that can make me laugh is something that is priceless in this very fast-paced world.

So what does all of this have to do with anything? Well, as I said I am watching Love Actually, feeling in a very flirty, lovey-dovey mood and wondering what is going to happen with this aspect of my life. In all honesty this is the first time I have really taken to consider this since I've been here. I have been so focused on everything else (money, work, flat, car), that I haven't had a chance to feel my heartbeat lately. I also think that the upcoming holidays make people think more about love or being in love. Hmm...I certainly don't have the mental stability for a man in my life right now, but wishful thinking is always fun. We always think we know what we want...I used to think so, but now I'm not so sure.

Now I'm just rambling. There is so much I'd like to say here, but for fear of wandering into the realm of hopeless romantic, I am going to cut this off.

Love to all!!
NK